LOOKING BACK OR LOOKING FORWARD?

Almost all of my life I have wanted to write.  What does that statement mean?  wanted to write...... Really all of my life I have been writing.  It is the one thing that has been a consistent friend, my therapy, through all the good times, but especially the bad.  When I say I wanted to write, what I really mean is that I wanted to get paid for writing.  I wanted to write that perfect novel, the love story, the biography, even the news story that would end up being a best seller.  So why haven't I done it?

Looking back I would say that I have made a lot of excuses.  The only really honest reason is probably the fear surrounded with not completing something that I start.  I remember birthdays coming and going and saying, ok, this is the year.. and that year would pass and still the book was only an outline on the paper.  I probably have at least 10 books outlined and journaled and put away in my basement.

What is going to push me to start an finish my book project?  Perhaps it will be that I want a memoir to give my friend's girls when they are old enough to want to know about their Mom.  Or maybe it will be the one gift that I can leave behind for my own children and grandchildren?

In this day of reality TV and fast-paced computer stories is there room for another novel about life?  Who cares.  It isn't about what other people want anyway.  I am not the people pleasing Momma anymore. There is only one person who has to like what I write and that is ME.